My deepest condolences.

Your loss is great, almost too much for words.

A great jaded wound has been ripped into your soul.

Breathe in,

slowly,

breathe out,

breathe

Look, see, numbness, tears,

rendering of all thoughts

tear into your soul

wounds, tears, sobs, hugs,

breathe

turn, slowly, look, see,

breathe

Remember

the laugh, twinkling chimes of merriment,

the touch, the smiles

Remember to breathe,

remember to look,

remember to see,

breathe

Touch that what was precious

be gentle in sorrow, it is hard

Hard on your soul, hard on your friend, hard, just as hard

yet different

Yell, cry, yell, talk, feel, cry, sob,

breathe

Negotiate a new day

Negotiate your grief,

promise anything for one more day

one more touch, one more whisper of their love,

it is all

we have left.

Negotiate your peace, promise,

look in the eyes,

touch your soul with your eyes

Where silence is a luxury,

give it space, touch

whisper, tears,

breathe

Peace,

a ways off,

it comes oh so slowly, it comes

in solace, in pink, in red, white, greens of the flowers,

the blue of the sky, it comes oh so slowly

Walk, slowly at first, everything is slow, thick like mud, cold, unreal,

a trick, oh they must be wrong

with Love, breathe, cry, breathe, walk, sob, cry, hope

With tears acknowledge the inevitable, gone with out you,

one last good buy, words of love, of care, of solace

a hug, gone and no more

tears, oh so cold, so uninvited morning, night, so many spaces in between,

relentless,

my heart heals with the passing of each saline drop,

slowly, so slowly, breathe, sleep, rest, go slow, one more drop

one more tear, the tare, the rent, the whole, just a bit less,

hidden in sorrow, hidden in the heart a healing place

for you to stay forever in my heart.

I love you always and I miss you always. For ever you mom.

For Eryn Jane Tremain 1984 – 2019